Hello all, it is I, the wanderer of the branch. I am excessing the place where I have just 'gone out on a limb', and guess what! There is nothing quite different at all. Nothing different much when you let go of your 'shoulds'.
Why? Well, frankly I'm still discovering it, but, to say the least, I didn't ever actually start doing what I 'should'.
I only just realized that. From here on in, I'm going to start speaking. That is what I said. That is what came up. I didn't do what I 'should'. I said what I 'should'.
No more. I will not. I will say what I feel instead. So here I go! Good thing I have a blog.
I also have a payment plan for something more. To tend to my need for value and money for bills overdue, I will ask for your assistance. I will always want to offer something more of myself, and I feel, as though I can offer what I am, in exchange for wealth. I would like to design a program for it. Wealth building.
I would like to involve others, so they may build wealth too. I would like to yell it from the mountain tops.
I'm not sure what this payment plan is yet but I think, it might sound, something along these lines.
Would you be willing to pay me, for an interaction to peace within? Would you like to inherit what I have built within myself? This would help me with my life if you said yes. I think that's it, so far.
That sounds like I'm creating myself a job, and I am. But I wanted to say it like that, because I feel its truth.
I also wanted to offer some way to create money for others. Maybe I can create a job.
Like this. Can I pay someone, to help me with my ongoing duties? Can I ask someone willing to assist me in redirecting my services outward? And who would that person be?
Apply within. Accepting offers as follows.
Please have no resume handy, I won't read it. Please be willing to deal with all the crap I don't want to do. I might pay you measly dollars per hour. How does that sound?
Hm. Maybe I need to learn how to express myself properly. Or, maybe I just need to tend to my own crap.
Something more on that. Why have I not paid myself to tend to my own crap? Not only am I not willing to pay another, I won't even pay myself. I think I'm going to realign my dollar sign, and air it out on here a while.
Feel free to respond with anything resembling the crap, or anything resembling the truth.
Even if it's confusing.
Opening up to see the light.
Dear ones, this will have been my first blog post of many. I hope it suits you well to know that, at this time, I am in Kitsilano, Vancouver. I am beginning again. I will be sending out a newsletter often, so if you had signed up for Alana the tattoo artist, know now that it is remaining, but also alongside Alana the channel.
I will also say that, for some time, I have been procrastinating my blog till now! So come one come all and feel what I have been privileged to have learned. It is continual as well, so check in often for new content.
Here is what I will describe for day 1. Business as usual, I was up before the sun came up, channeling and singing into what is to come.
My vision is this. A set of agreements to myself that I will,
1) Speak up
2) Say it with heart
3) Invite others to comment as well
4) Conclude that there will be, no conclusion to these never ending tides.
From there, I begin.
Today is not only the first day of my blog, but also the first day I will publish it. No surprise to me, I have no idea how this will be done. I guess I'm about to see.
Thank you to the spirit realm, and guides Saint Francis Assisi for my deep lesson today in the tricks the minds can play when the heart isn't watching.
The heart is not always watching, you see. But it is always aware of something. Today my heart wanted me to play deeper, challenge softer. And speak more. Today is the day I start.
And since I have already begun much before this new website has, there will be a lot to unfold.
For now I leave you with this prayer.
Have heart, dear traveller, that you are the one you need the most. Never regret the past, for it has brought you the present, and will assist in your future. Never deny your short comings, for they may be the path toward your rareness. Your uniqueness is always a gift, no matter how brave you have yet to be.
In Light, yours,
St. Francis Assisi