Since I'm an author, I'm getting used to saying things that I find, deep within my inner construct. I believe it would have value, if only to myself, to share my truth and then write it. Maybe you'll feel something similar. Maybe these words will help in some way, help you feel connected to your humanity, the way my fear, and exposing it, helps me stay connected to who and what I am. I'm always wondering about it. Analyzing it. And finding freedom within the fact that it is my fear, that shows me who I am. And who I am not. It is often, what I want to run away from, or to, that offers me the information I need to create the peace and balance again. I think I've figured everything out. Found peace. Learned deep forgiveness, but then, there it goes again; another pendulum swing. So from here, I see that my fear is less scary than I thought it was. Maybe I was hiding behind a pattern about not being free to speak. Maybe the pattern crept up as another pattern that denied my very will to create what I want and feel supported. Is it so wrong to say things that no one else is saying? If you expected something from me and I didn't do or say what you thought, why do I feel so ashamed? How stuck am I in that? How often do I see it? And where do I fall into alignment and away from the shame of being and feeling and acting different? Or maybe everyone acts different and I didn't give myself the time to notice. I am unsure. But, I know this. I can't hide any of myself and if I do, I literally become ill. So, if it helps me stay healthy, might as well publish my book, even if it includes very dramatic secrets that I had uncovered about myself through painful experiences. Probably sounds like a better read anyway. Sigh. Well, then, if that is what makes my life easier, so be it. Let me become that girl that says everything for once. Just get used to it, okay? Alright. And as for my new structure, I think others will feel better too. Maybe give us all some peace of mind to hear that despite my knowledge of the depths, I kind of have no idea what the heck is about to resolve. I have future predictions a lot, and I know others want to hear their future in my readings. However, it is almost never what I give. Or, rather, what I am given to show to the client. It is always a resolution to a choice. And, if that is the way we create the future, then so be it. Use your choices wisely. Make bigger ones. And if you can't see a better or bigger horizon with the choices you see before you, wait and see what can be created through prayer and intention. We are in a big manifestation system all the time. If you don't like what you hold, pick up some new cards. I'm not saying this lightly, I actually did that. It was not easy. You can't have a huge debt and then make one choice to richness. Well, I couldn't. You have to start creating the new pattern to align to that choice in the future. So, you will need to analyze what beliefs you will want to change to open to a new potential. If you ask me, what is my future? I will say to you, what do you want?
And so on. I love this rule, this way of humanity. It gives us back our empowerment if we choose it. It isn't easy but maybe in time, it will be, when we start choosing up, eventually we are going up from up. That sounds like a nice future from my gaze.
I'm open to this conversation just as my books are open to one on one explorations to this very nature inside you. Drawing techniques for a new timeline, is what I see. Let us draw up a beautiful continuation to humanities misfortunes, and an even bolder tomorrow using strong choices that include everyone. It has to be everyone, because you are that. I am you. I missed my sister so much until I got her back in my life. And I felt I had been missing a part of me.
I love her and you. I love me. This is us people, we are the ones we've been waiting for.
Opening up to see the light.
Dear ones, this will have been my first blog post of many. I hope it suits you well to know that, at this time, I am in Kitsilano, Vancouver. I am beginning again. I will be sending out a newsletter often, so if you had signed up for Alana the tattoo artist, know now that it is remaining, but also alongside Alana the channel.
I will also say that, for some time, I have been procrastinating my blog till now! So come one come all and feel what I have been privileged to have learned. It is continual as well, so check in often for new content.
Here is what I will describe for day 1. Business as usual, I was up before the sun came up, channeling and singing into what is to come.
My vision is this. A set of agreements to myself that I will,
1) Speak up
2) Say it with heart
3) Invite others to comment as well
4) Conclude that there will be, no conclusion to these never ending tides.
From there, I begin.
Today is not only the first day of my blog, but also the first day I will publish it. No surprise to me, I have no idea how this will be done. I guess I'm about to see.
Thank you to the spirit realm, and guides Saint Francis Assisi for my deep lesson today in the tricks the minds can play when the heart isn't watching.
The heart is not always watching, you see. But it is always aware of something. Today my heart wanted me to play deeper, challenge softer. And speak more. Today is the day I start.
And since I have already begun much before this new website has, there will be a lot to unfold.
For now I leave you with this prayer.
Have heart, dear traveller, that you are the one you need the most. Never regret the past, for it has brought you the present, and will assist in your future. Never deny your short comings, for they may be the path toward your rareness. Your uniqueness is always a gift, no matter how brave you have yet to be.
In Light, yours,
St. Francis Assisi