Hello my dear friends and allies, I speak here often, don't I? The truth is I will have managed many posts before their time to be read. The advantage was, for me, I was able to process them. But, soon, the choice will shift and I will be published the moment I click it so. So from here on out, whatever I say will be made manifest. I trust that, you will help me heal, by reading these words. Even more if you comment. Even more, if you say your truth. Whether comical or in misunderstanding. Because boldness was desired within my shyness. I want to be truly free from it. I don't wish to pick any fights ever. I wish to be bold in truth.
Who's coming with me?
Hello all, it is I, the wanderer of the branch. I am excessing the place where I have just 'gone out on a limb', and guess what! There is nothing quite different at all. Nothing different much when you let go of your 'shoulds'.
Why? Well, frankly I'm still discovering it, but, to say the least, I didn't ever actually start doing what I 'should'.
I only just realized that. From here on in, I'm going to start speaking. That is what I said. That is what came up. I didn't do what I 'should'. I said what I 'should'.
No more. I will not. I will say what I feel instead. So here I go! Good thing I have a blog.
I also have a payment plan for something more. To tend to my need for value and money for bills overdue, I will ask for your assistance. I will always want to offer something more of myself, and I feel, as though I can offer what I am, in exchange for wealth. I would like to design a program for it. Wealth building.
I would like to involve others, so they may build wealth too. I would like to yell it from the mountain tops.
I'm not sure what this payment plan is yet but I think, it might sound, something along these lines.
Would you be willing to pay me, for an interaction to peace within? Would you like to inherit what I have built within myself? This would help me with my life if you said yes. I think that's it, so far.
That sounds like I'm creating myself a job, and I am. But I wanted to say it like that, because I feel its truth.
I also wanted to offer some way to create money for others. Maybe I can create a job.
Like this. Can I pay someone, to help me with my ongoing duties? Can I ask someone willing to assist me in redirecting my services outward? And who would that person be?
Apply within. Accepting offers as follows.
Please have no resume handy, I won't read it. Please be willing to deal with all the crap I don't want to do. I might pay you measly dollars per hour. How does that sound?
Hm. Maybe I need to learn how to express myself properly. Or, maybe I just need to tend to my own crap.
Something more on that. Why have I not paid myself to tend to my own crap? Not only am I not willing to pay another, I won't even pay myself. I think I'm going to realign my dollar sign, and air it out on here a while.
Feel free to respond with anything resembling the crap, or anything resembling the truth.
Even if it's confusing.
Truth be told, I am in need of more wealth. By any sense of standard and judgement, I would never actually say that outloud. I would just pretend that everything is fine, and I'm tending to my bills easily. I had been for a long time, so it's a very easy thing to pretend. I kind of, remember what that feels like. It had existed for so long. I think it was the sudden change in the appearance of the world that shifted that, my will to achieve, and also, to want. Money. I just didn't want it. I thought I needed it, but...
Here's something new for me that I never thought I would encounter. How can we dedicate ourselves deeply to our passions while we still have a need for so much wealth? How can you pay all the bills and still have time for fun?
I surely do not know the answer, but I have discovered, that my need for wealth, is a perception. And my need to create is not. So if I rearrange that, and receive myself as an author, a poet and an illustrator, a tattooer as well who loves each thing as a prayer, then there is my solution. I believe I will be paid what I need in time. I do.
And for the sake of giving, I would also like to be charitable. I would like to see someone paid more for their idea of a creative endeavour. I would also like to create more options for wealth among us. Among the strength of us. It makes me sad to work at a thing when I don't love it. It makes me sad when I see others not liking their work. I know it's possible, but then, who does the odd jobs that no one likes? Well, maybe someone does like those odd jobs, especially when there's value to them.
So there's that thought, but here's this one.
Are we meant to create dynasty and something worth while, or are we meant to trudge through certain things and then enjoy others in our free time?
The deeper thought here, as I process this outloud, on a page for you to read is, what would happen if we let go of all the things we 'should' do? Would the world fall apart? I do not know the answer once again, but I believe I am about to find out. For me, at least. I just processed the shift of a belief. My next set of beliefs are in the tradition of setting free the 'shoulds'.
So, I wonder what is next. What's the plan here?
I'm about to go out on a limb here, I can feel it.
Stay tuned for more.
Well. Today has already been interesting enough to report. I wanted to create something meaningful in my life, that encompassed all my gifts, as well as brought me more love in my life. I am about to give birth to such an idea.
I'd like to thank my father, who has passed, in 2010, but is very much here with me each and every day. My psychic relationship with him has gotten so strong and deep, I now see his face, his mannerisms in my heart mind space. That's where you see them, passed ancestors, in your heart and your mind simultaneously. It used to be more like a vivid memory, but as my heart softened, I started to become more aware of him. And he speaks often. He has been guiding me toward a better financial plan. I had kinda kicked the bucket with debt recently and he's helped me rebuild it. It just goes to show, how we really need all of us to grow.
Here is the start of the dream. I will also be sending out a newsletter with this proposal (hehe) so please sign up, or email with interest and I'll write you back on the matter.
I'm going to start holding ceremonies for the public, to marry them, to themselves. Hear me out. We are deeply in need of unity and togetherness, and the way toward that is through each of our own hearts. If we can't seem to forgive our past or something within us, our hearts deny access to love from outside us. It is really true, you must love yourself before you are loved in return. And possibly, I would love to marry individuals that would like to see themselves in a healthy relationship, those that want to marry another. As I continue in this field I would love to conduct those ceremonies as well. Imagine, a ceremony, filled with heart and legacy. Filled with all your beautiful inner wisdom, your past creations are blessed and your future alignment is treated with sanctity. I see it going deep, and also fun. We need fun. I'm proposing this here in my blog to introduce it. Please feel free to comment or email, and I will see you, within the pranic field of excellence.
There is a lot to say, I suppose.
I wanted to also collect what I am, as I process this whirlwind of information that seeks us. Spirit seeks you, so if you reach out to grab it, it will show you everything it is, and with no sense of embarrassment. If you choose to enter a class, it will be much like this; a constant stream of information. Spiritual blog. But it also enhances your frequency and aligns you to that sense of more I spoke about in recent blogs.
Each enterprise is the same at the root, the truth is ultimately love, but there are endless frequencies to explore within that.
Financial frequencies, observational frequencies, frequencies of more.
Frequencies of motherhood, fatherhood, sisterhood, brotherhood.
You are an excellent source of inner frequency, if you'll just illuminate toward it.
The way I found is through spoken word.
As I decline any adjustments to which words come through me and want to be said, I find that a new possibility occurs, for myself and the journeyer.
I wanted to share that here, for clarity's sake.
I also wanted to share that, for a first blog, I wonder, if there's any possibility that I had all this wisdom saved up to splash somewhere.
Let this be the place I air it all out, then.
Forever amused at the fact that I have recently encountered something inside that speaks constantly, I'd like to exchange and offering.
Exchange meaning there will be time in payment for value. In this case, I'm describing my class. It is ongoing and tutored by the Spiritual realm, depending on the matter.
For instance, if there are a lot of mothers in the group, and ancient secret of mothering will be involved, so perhaps, it will be Mother Mary who shows up to the concert.
Willingly, I describe this here, as I know, it isn't the most proactive place for it.
But what is? Where will I advent my ever changing process if not here?
So here it is. It is world wide, so wherever you are, you can be sure to find it. It is also within the heart space, so it will travel with you afterward. The classes are designed in a group offering at first, and each patron is entitled to a one on one session to follow up more personally. We do this one on one on the phone and the class in taught on zoom for now, but as the world turns, it won't be long until I will rather post my videos of the live class, in person.
That way I can supply kleenex's for your tear jerking experiences and perhaps luxury seating.
In any other right, I would say this all in a different place, but for now, it is here.
Today I feel like I've won something, somehow. A new gift has arisen. And it feels so soft and gentle to me, so I wanted to have an opportunity to scribe it here, in the energy of gifting and sharing.
It is peace. It is what I've always strived for and prayed for. Peace was something I remember as a child. I remember playing in peace, or thinking in peace. Things were already tended to, and if they weren't you had no recall or vision to what that might become, as far as problems. As though there is a pleasant ignorance in bliss, and bliss in ignorance.
And when you get to be around my age, of 38, you think. Where did all that energy go? What childlike quality has been missing so long?
But it wasn't missing, I was growing up from it. Becoming an adult, finding my way and my passions through my dreams. And you need to gain a perspective of responsibility, don't you? I did. I became responsible in ways and completely opposite in others. I declined any resemblance to self care for a decade or so, but had a lot of fun doing it. And now I'm here. Without mistreatment, but a little, new.
New in the aspect that I'm looking around my inner world and checking boxes. Responsibility, check. Age old charismsa, check. Talent and virtue, check. What about fun within tribute though? Weren't we meant to play as artists? As healers, as psychics. As natural people?
We all have so many parts to us, but do we really? Or are we just parts of a greater aspect? Are we meant to turn away from pieces of us to become more?
I'm starting to feel a bit empty and used without that childlike quality. The part of me that wanted to explore and do things, just because.
Just because it's fun, or it might be. It also might not be, but where's the sense of adventure in locking something away that didn't work out once?
The thing that didn't work out for me once was public speaking. I was tremendously shy and awkward, so I assumed it wasn't my thing.
But now I do it for a living. And although I've achieved a sermon or two in my day, as poetry, this seems a bit different. As though I couldn't have listened deeper if I didn't have the courage and skill to find it.
So, what I'm offering here, is an opportunity for myself to say, I needed all of me. All of my pain, my party years, my dedication to having a hard heart, and the journey toward healing. And after a while I needed to let that go too; if I'm forever healing, then where's the fun?
So I'm starting again as though I'm healed, and without sin. I know I will still have a mistake or two and lesson along the way, but what's wrong with confusion, from time to time?
I'm not one, I am all.
We don't ever really devise a plan we are aware of, until it is aware of us. In a way, that means, that your dreams are romancing you as well, but in another sense, it means you also must achieve the awareness of it.
The goal here, is to speak about humans approach to paradigms, and uncover them a little. And since we have a stage; this blog, we will. We, being the giant and immense energy, Saint Michael.
We also include the work of many Saints to this page of wisdom, so don't assume yourself if you already feel it's truth. Which basically means, all of Spirits guidance is dedicated to the fact that you are it. So to declare something in truth will have many faces. Many eyes, many ears, many races, many genders, many roles.
All are welcome within truth, in fact we need all.
We can't have any limits either on this paradigm, or our genius plan of existing eternally won't pan out. So it does, and forever more.
Your genius might be still hiding inside you, or maybe you already know of it. Either way, I tell you there's more, and oh so much of it. More to the point where you won't even see it all coming.
As we've said, your plan is on it's way toward you.
What have you been planning? What does your heart have to say on the matter? Your soul? Well since you're all part of the same greater aspect of you, we'd say the 'plan' is limitless. We are only in the 'right here' part of the plan. So whatever happens next, will be filled with mystery. Mistakes and all. To uncover what we want, we must really learn at times, what we don't.
And so, the pendulum swings. But, what if it doesn't have to? What if you could cause your pendulum to calm right down and do something entirely new?
We want to also brief to you this. There is a whole eternity that you don't yet see. What if all you needed was a little courage, to see more. To hear more, and to say more. Then what are your choices to become?
Well now, we wanted to start there. And we promise you, there's more.
Trust is a virtue. And we are the virtuous. But what about the past, can we trust that the past was just as good? Even if it wasn't? Do we need to keep erasing the past to achieve enlightenment, or some sense of God? And who is God anyway? Well, the myth here is that it isn't you. Even the word God casts it outside of you. Like there is some man in a cloud that tells you what to do. Well, as truth would have it, that's not really it, otherwise we could just go to the cloud and ask for advice or a new car and all would be well. The truth must be, that whatever God represents inside you. Otherwise we would all be lost.
Today is a day for boldness and humility. To speak here and completely unannounced would declare war on parts of my insecurity. So, bravely, I accept the challenge. Please reach out with any questions and feel free to comment at will. I wanted this to become a space for recovery to talent for all. So what you say will be welcome. And the recovery is that I wanted to say prayers through my art. If you see your piece here, know that I loved it. And if you don't, know I loved it too, but there is only so much I want to post of a good thing. So if I only have a few items to share at a time, I want them to be shown in boldness. Over time I'm sure I would arrange to overwhelm otherwise.
If my aesthetic pleases you, I am open to commissions. I am also sharing my spoken word through an elegant way, in classes. Reach out for more information. Please contact me through email, as I'm not always looking on here.
Just in case you don't reach me, try through the psychic realm. I'll be sitting, cozy, drinking tea and conjuring more peace to share.
Opening up to see the light.
Dear ones, this will have been my first blog post of many. I hope it suits you well to know that, at this time, I am in Kitsilano, Vancouver. I am beginning again. I will be sending out a newsletter often, so if you had signed up for Alana the tattoo artist, know now that it is remaining, but also alongside Alana the channel.
I will also say that, for some time, I have been procrastinating my blog till now! So come one come all and feel what I have been privileged to have learned. It is continual as well, so check in often for new content.
Here is what I will describe for day 1. Business as usual, I was up before the sun came up, channeling and singing into what is to come.
My vision is this. A set of agreements to myself that I will,
1) Speak up
2) Say it with heart
3) Invite others to comment as well
4) Conclude that there will be, no conclusion to these never ending tides.
From there, I begin.
Today is not only the first day of my blog, but also the first day I will publish it. No surprise to me, I have no idea how this will be done. I guess I'm about to see.
Thank you to the spirit realm, and guides Saint Francis Assisi for my deep lesson today in the tricks the minds can play when the heart isn't watching.
The heart is not always watching, you see. But it is always aware of something. Today my heart wanted me to play deeper, challenge softer. And speak more. Today is the day I start.
And since I have already begun much before this new website has, there will be a lot to unfold.
For now I leave you with this prayer.
Have heart, dear traveller, that you are the one you need the most. Never regret the past, for it has brought you the present, and will assist in your future. Never deny your short comings, for they may be the path toward your rareness. Your uniqueness is always a gift, no matter how brave you have yet to be.
In Light, yours,
St. Francis Assisi