Truth be told, I am in need of more wealth. By any sense of standard and judgement, I would never actually say that outloud. I would just pretend that everything is fine, and I'm tending to my bills easily. I had been for a long time, so it's a very easy thing to pretend. I kind of, remember what that feels like. It had existed for so long. I think it was the sudden change in the appearance of the world that shifted that, my will to achieve, and also, to want. Money. I just didn't want it. I thought I needed it, but...
Here's something new for me that I never thought I would encounter. How can we dedicate ourselves deeply to our passions while we still have a need for so much wealth? How can you pay all the bills and still have time for fun?
I surely do not know the answer, but I have discovered, that my need for wealth, is a perception. And my need to create is not. So if I rearrange that, and receive myself as an author, a poet and an illustrator, a tattooer as well who loves each thing as a prayer, then there is my solution. I believe I will be paid what I need in time. I do.
And for the sake of giving, I would also like to be charitable. I would like to see someone paid more for their idea of a creative endeavour. I would also like to create more options for wealth among us. Among the strength of us. It makes me sad to work at a thing when I don't love it. It makes me sad when I see others not liking their work. I know it's possible, but then, who does the odd jobs that no one likes? Well, maybe someone does like those odd jobs, especially when there's value to them.
So there's that thought, but here's this one.
Are we meant to create dynasty and something worth while, or are we meant to trudge through certain things and then enjoy others in our free time?
The deeper thought here, as I process this outloud, on a page for you to read is, what would happen if we let go of all the things we 'should' do? Would the world fall apart? I do not know the answer once again, but I believe I am about to find out. For me, at least. I just processed the shift of a belief. My next set of beliefs are in the tradition of setting free the 'shoulds'.
So, I wonder what is next. What's the plan here?
I'm about to go out on a limb here, I can feel it.
Stay tuned for more.
Opening up to see the light.
Dear ones, this will have been my first blog post of many. I hope it suits you well to know that, at this time, I am in Kitsilano, Vancouver. I am beginning again. I will be sending out a newsletter often, so if you had signed up for Alana the tattoo artist, know now that it is remaining, but also alongside Alana the channel.
I will also say that, for some time, I have been procrastinating my blog till now! So come one come all and feel what I have been privileged to have learned. It is continual as well, so check in often for new content.
Here is what I will describe for day 1. Business as usual, I was up before the sun came up, channeling and singing into what is to come.
My vision is this. A set of agreements to myself that I will,
1) Speak up
2) Say it with heart
3) Invite others to comment as well
4) Conclude that there will be, no conclusion to these never ending tides.
From there, I begin.
Today is not only the first day of my blog, but also the first day I will publish it. No surprise to me, I have no idea how this will be done. I guess I'm about to see.
Thank you to the spirit realm, and guides Saint Francis Assisi for my deep lesson today in the tricks the minds can play when the heart isn't watching.
The heart is not always watching, you see. But it is always aware of something. Today my heart wanted me to play deeper, challenge softer. And speak more. Today is the day I start.
And since I have already begun much before this new website has, there will be a lot to unfold.
For now I leave you with this prayer.
Have heart, dear traveller, that you are the one you need the most. Never regret the past, for it has brought you the present, and will assist in your future. Never deny your short comings, for they may be the path toward your rareness. Your uniqueness is always a gift, no matter how brave you have yet to be.
In Light, yours,
St. Francis Assisi