My experience with Mother Ayahuasca was profound. In Peru and within a well held class with friends of all ages, including little ones. But, they didn't take the medicine. We were just all in one pot. Babies need tending to, while mothers need healing. What to do?
What about this vaccine? We have a problem with a sudden solution. And not everyone agrees. What to do?
Sometimes I'm not sure about where I stand on things that don't encompass truth. If there is a lot of possibility for myth within a topic, I steer away naturally so I can find it, for myself. Where do I stand on the vaccine? I keep wondering. I want to visit my mom, so I would get it if she preferred it. I want to go to Mexico to pick up my dog and if the government makes me get it, I will.
I will only get this serum if someone makes me? But wait, I stand for freedom. I relate to freedom with every other topic. Do what you want and live free!
Except, you're closing the borders to me if I don't get this injection.
Well, honestly, I did a little research, but how to really know still? Read this, listen to an educated human tell you their opinion.
So, where do I stand on it? I don't want to get it! I so don't want to get it. Especially if I have to do it so another is comfortable. I just stood outside my own comfort zone for a year in preparation for some big decisions. I will just buy my own plane then, and go to Mexico.
No, not really. But, I'm rooting for the opposition when they help us look in another direction. I might not agree with all the hum drum of life, like conspiracy yada yada. I believe in freedom, remember? Freedom of choice! Get that vaccine if you want it! Protest your limits if you want! I don't agree either way. I can't. I haven't had my own honest to goodness experience with it.
Maybe I'll call my mom and ask her if she minds if I don't get it. That will be my new and old law. Mom, are you okay with my life choices?
If she says yes, I'm NEVER getting the pin prick.
I'm never going to fall unless my mom is wanting me to. I don't think she will. I think she wants me to be proud of myself.
So, my decision is to stay silent on the matter and not confuse others with an unreformed opinion. I will listen though. If you had a messed up, or real experience with the vaccine or anything else. But that will have been yours to experience.
In a world full of choice, I commit to mine, until I'm good and ready to change it.
I've made a few choices recently and found myself alone in them. Well guess what. They aren't changing. I am just going to keep at it until people do want to join in. I know I need others, but, I also love my life enough not to conform. And if I'm sitting all alone in a world where everyone conformed except me, I'm not going to believe it. Where is the herd in herd mentality?
I always picture this group herd of people, and but, when I go out into the various avenues of my life, it looks like everyone is, for the most part, thinking on their own behalf. Some people share a similar stance on the vaccine. "I'll get it if it makes my life easier."
That sounds like leadership to me. You had better things to worry about and bigger things on your plate than sacrifice some impolite battle. Or, maybe the battle is yours and you're passionate in it. I like and love both sides. I love passion, people. If you are standing against something, I would love to know why. But, I can't watch it on the news. Maybe a Ted Talk? Or maybe in person. My curiosity rouses to experience in thought. I'm not big enough to experience everything under the sun, and I know I might not attract a need to worry about the vaccine at all. I don't go to big events. But, I might. If I'm not allowed to go to things I want to go to, fine, I'll get the dang injection. But, I'm not going to worry that the serum is going to control me, or have adverse reaction. I'll just trust, that we are all in this together. We obviously needed to learn some lessons in this world, together. About silence and rest. About speaking up at the right time and where it counts.
So, what hurts? Silence when you need togetherness, and stillness when you hoped for action.
What is awesome and great? Silence in the heart and stillness of the mind, always. Constantly.
We need to hit these choices with softness and love what we chose, otherwise we regret.
Let the questions come up though! Even after a big choice. Wonder, "Should I have done whatever I just did?" And then just, do something else.
What I'm saying is, I respect your choice to live as you do. If you are going to be bossy with me, I'm going to have to analyze why someone does not trust my choice for me. Have I projected something out of right relationship with myself to coax my government into making a choice on my behalf? Why is my mom and exception? Oh, because love. If you love me and want me to get the vaccine, let's talk, in love. Don't bully me though! I'm sensitive.
We all are, even secretly. I think I found my cage. I fly around it, and don't ever shut the door. That means I'm free, but it is possible to be trapped. I just need to keep my mind clear in these times of big choice. I'm only clear about what's now, and not about what's later. If you ask me about something in the future and don't hear a reply, it's because I don't know yet. Can we be silent and project that we aren't ignoring, but have yet to decide? My comfort level with that very topic is stretching as, ones in my life who I love aren't speaking now. I think they will again, but I just asked big things to my people. So, I wait, and not rush them. I love them though, so what ever their decisions are, I will say yes! Do that! I'm still gonna do this though.
Love you, K, Bye.
Opening up to see the light.
Dear ones, this will have been my first blog post of many. I hope it suits you well to know that, at this time, I am in Kitsilano, Vancouver. I am beginning again. I will be sending out a newsletter often, so if you had signed up for Alana the tattoo artist, know now that it is remaining, but also alongside Alana the channel.
I will also say that, for some time, I have been procrastinating my blog till now! So come one come all and feel what I have been privileged to have learned. It is continual as well, so check in often for new content.
Here is what I will describe for day 1. Business as usual, I was up before the sun came up, channeling and singing into what is to come.
My vision is this. A set of agreements to myself that I will,
1) Speak up
2) Say it with heart
3) Invite others to comment as well
4) Conclude that there will be, no conclusion to these never ending tides.
From there, I begin.
Today is not only the first day of my blog, but also the first day I will publish it. No surprise to me, I have no idea how this will be done. I guess I'm about to see.
Thank you to the spirit realm, and guides Saint Francis Assisi for my deep lesson today in the tricks the minds can play when the heart isn't watching.
The heart is not always watching, you see. But it is always aware of something. Today my heart wanted me to play deeper, challenge softer. And speak more. Today is the day I start.
And since I have already begun much before this new website has, there will be a lot to unfold.
For now I leave you with this prayer.
Have heart, dear traveller, that you are the one you need the most. Never regret the past, for it has brought you the present, and will assist in your future. Never deny your short comings, for they may be the path toward your rareness. Your uniqueness is always a gift, no matter how brave you have yet to be.
In Light, yours,
St. Francis Assisi