For some reason, I woke up today in a rush. At 5 am there is not reason for rush, especially given the fact that I have no commitments until midday. So what is this sense of urgency? I know it well. You might too. It's a deep feeling like something is wrong, and you've forgotten to tend to something. Like, if you look away, it's all going to fall apart.
The mess of it. That feeling. And try as you might, you can never quite find it. Checking all your boxes, it all seems correct. It's because you can't see it. You can only feel it. Something deeply out of order. No use to judge it either, so it just fades over the day and you're distracted enough by the order of things. That seems to make it better. But at the end of the day, lying in bed, if you're awake for it, that feeling will muster again. You know it? I wanted to point it out for a reason. If you tend to it, and listen. If you have the courage to ask the feeling a question, it will indeed speak. It won't be comfortable, I promise you. But the discomfort won't last, and if you just give it it's moment, and let it move through you, without judgement. It might look like a fear, something from the past, but I'll remind you, it's just a story. A removable imprint that wants to urge you toward it. So that you can be free. If you've ever wondered where your spiritual guidance is, you'll be sure to find it within that very feeling. And with commitment, you'll uncover depth, love and spiritual reverence. This is my way through it. Feel free to comment on any revelations you might have had.
Opening up to see the light.
Dear ones, this will have been my first blog post of many. I hope it suits you well to know that, at this time, I am in Kitsilano, Vancouver. I am beginning again. I will be sending out a newsletter often, so if you had signed up for Alana the tattoo artist, know now that it is remaining, but also alongside Alana the channel.
I will also say that, for some time, I have been procrastinating my blog till now! So come one come all and feel what I have been privileged to have learned. It is continual as well, so check in often for new content.
Here is what I will describe for day 1. Business as usual, I was up before the sun came up, channeling and singing into what is to come.
My vision is this. A set of agreements to myself that I will,
1) Speak up
2) Say it with heart
3) Invite others to comment as well
4) Conclude that there will be, no conclusion to these never ending tides.
From there, I begin.
Today is not only the first day of my blog, but also the first day I will publish it. No surprise to me, I have no idea how this will be done. I guess I'm about to see.
Thank you to the spirit realm, and guides Saint Francis Assisi for my deep lesson today in the tricks the minds can play when the heart isn't watching.
The heart is not always watching, you see. But it is always aware of something. Today my heart wanted me to play deeper, challenge softer. And speak more. Today is the day I start.
And since I have already begun much before this new website has, there will be a lot to unfold.
For now I leave you with this prayer.
Have heart, dear traveller, that you are the one you need the most. Never regret the past, for it has brought you the present, and will assist in your future. Never deny your short comings, for they may be the path toward your rareness. Your uniqueness is always a gift, no matter how brave you have yet to be.
In Light, yours,
St. Francis Assisi